jessefscott's Blog

this week has been crazy. my home got flooded from the roof leaking. my home almost fell apart. thankfully nothing was damaged and no one was hurt but for just today i have the annoying sound of hammering above me. i had to go out of town for almost 3 days at 12 am in the morning in just a t shirt and some sleep shorts. i had no communication with almost anyone-which drove me crazy. i went back to school yesterday and had nothing but make up work. today my friend had his iPod stolen from him-from someone he trusted...lets just hope that the steal-er doesn't start a fight with him. so this week i have had no communication with anyone for a little while and it drove me crazy. this weekend: try and rest and clear the noise of this hammering out of my ears!

Dreams have shed light on some difficult issues I've been trying to resolve. i can finally make the problems disappear. It's a blessing! i will probably want to sit home and enjoy my new-found contentment. put on some favorite music, and relax! things have gotten better. wish me luck! i will post if something changes.

well here is how i have described my day: There's been a special warmth and sensitivity in the air that has helped my life seem a little bit easier. today i have been surrounded by people who do appreciate me and then there were the others that did not understand me. today my "Best friend" spoke to me after he did not talk to me in almost a week. he said he was busy and during that time i felt as if i was just getting father away from him. we video chatted for a little bit but we just did not talk that much. the worst part is that this girl who would never be a match for him tried to hangout with him and she kept claiming that she was dating him. the hardest part about this? the fact that i am now in 9th grade and she has seemed to despise me since the first day of 7th grade. she said that i was some sort of "stalker" when she just can't seem to realize that i am just a quiet person who doesn't talk a whole lot. my friend said that she is not his type and she still won't leave him alone. she thinks that i have always been stalking him when i just want someone to talk to. anyways, besides that little situation the feeling in the air for me today has been the best i have ever felt. also it looks like it will take me a few days to get use to this time change...so thanks for reading and let me know how y'all are ajusting to the new time change, or anything else in the comments.

so, i am a high functioning autistic. meaning that i have a higher intelligence than most people of my age in certain subjects, but i am a shy person that doesn't know how to easily communicate to others and when i do try, no one understands me or if they do they think i am "weird". the truth is that all my life i just want one friend in my life who will support me just as much as i would support them. i don't judge other just by their actions but also their views and ideas as a person and how they treat others. i have a special ed twin brother with a part of his brain removed. he always experiences deja vu. so it is difficult for me to help take care of him. besides that i have a little sister who is a smart-mouth who thinks she knows everything and she stand for what she believes in. onision has helped me by realizing that even though it seems like i have no one in the world to depend on sometimes, i can still try and stay strong and can get through it step by step. i really don't know what else to say except this is me. i hope to do my best to help others get through this crazy ever changing world we call life. it seems rough but it will get better. take it a little step at a time.