"What are you two doing?!", screamed Mrs. Garrett, clearly horrified. "What are you two thinking?? How could you think you could just start kissing in the hallways for twenty minutes?!" She continued to scream, but to me it was only a blur of gibberish screeches. I tried to pull away from Davis, to see if we could somehow get out of this trouble, but instead of letting my pull away, he held me tighter to him and kept looking only at me. A fresh wave of embarrassment flooded me and my cheeks went hot and red, as I thought of what it must have looked like to Mrs. Garrett, but he still clung to me firmly. I gave in and stopped trying to pull away, clinging to his strong body, and trying to block out Mrs. Garrett. But Mrs. Garrett wasn't yelling at us anymore, in fact, it seemed as though she didn't even notice us.
"Jinny, don't think too much of this, and don't tell anyone about it, okay?" he said quietly, looking into my eyes blankly. Shame washed over me, as I thought of how stupid I must have been to believe he actually liked me. "Of course, Davis. I'm sorry," I said as I looked away from him. Hugging me tightly again, he murmured "We can do this again sometime, if you want. I really would like to." My eyes lit up and I quickly nodded my head as I slipped out of his arms and ran down the hall, back to class.
As I sat back down in math class, my mind again began to race with ideas. I had given up all hope of paying any attention to my classes that day, there was no way I could focus on anything but My Stranger. His piercing blue eyes seemed were tattooed to my eyelids, and I kept drifting back to his kiss, his strong arms, and his lean body. And one thing came back into my mind, Mrs. Garrett. It was like she forgot we even existed, I thought. Like she couldn't even see us.
Again, the bell sounded and I gathered my books and quickly walked to Science. The crowded hallways felt like a war-zone, a battlefield where only the biggest can survive. When I finally reached my class, I was late as usual, but Mr B didn't notice. I saw Isabel and rushed to my seat next to her. As his usual presentation began, and the lights went out, we began our conversation. "Iss, do you remember that Davis guy?" I asked in a hushed tone. "Who? You mean that Brumlow one?" she responded. "No, the Blackmon one" "I've never heard of him, Jin" she whispered, looking at me as though I had barked at her like a dog.
I spent the rest of the day pondering how she couldn't have remembered My Stranger. Maybe she was just fooling around. Maybe she just wanted to mess with me, I thought. But what about Mrs. Garrett, she would never let a student get away with that! I spent the day in a haze, and when I boarded the bus, I could have sworn I saw his eyes staring at me as I left....
It's the life that we choose,
The one that we live.
It's the life we hold on to,
That we pray has no end.
You pray for forgiveness,
To a being you don't know is there.
You fear the day will come,
When fear is no longer fear.
You hide in the light,
Of a world filled with shadows.
You cry in your dreams,
Hoping for someone to save you.
A new day has come,
You are free now.
But what will you do,
When you discover the day,
You thought was for you,
Was a fantasy all this time.
The one you ran off to,
The day you died.
We all suffer at some point in life
There's negativity everywhere
Lying, Stealing, Murder and Rape.
Molestion, Depression, Abortion.
Everyone knows about at least one of these.
But there are opinions on these things
But even so, stand for your opinion.
There's no wrong or right.
Because wrong or right
is basic judgement of opinions
So, you see.
Life's laws and rules
Are all opinions
some got to be solidified to requirements
some missed that chance.
but agree to disagree sometimes
Because your opinion matters as much as anyone else's
No matter how insignificant you THINK you are, you matter, so never forget that!
Giving my all
To conceal my heart
And not to let my true feelings show
Not to show myself
Trying my best
To get something right
To make something beautiful
But to no avail
Wishing with all my heart
That someone could hear
My silent pleas and sobs
Or truly notice my pain
Hoping to myself
That the world doesn't seem me
In the same way I see myself
Or doesn't see me at all
Working my hardest
To measure up to her
To be as beautiful and loved
some may want to correct me and state that it is clearly the "queen bee"
you are wrong
i am who i am and you can't change me
my black and yellow stripes may not be real
but those stripes
are soft and prickly, just like a real bee
i have created 2 robotic arms and attached them to my nicolas rib cage
i do all of this for the authentic experience
there is a reason why i had wires implanted into my forehead
and my nose removed
and a set of four fake wings surgically attached to my back
and my colon inverted to simulate a stinger
i'll do anything
anything at all
so that one day
i can finally be
Im going on a long trip, so I most likely wont have time for this.
so then, as time went on, me and her's arguments grew longer and more harsh. We became more bitter towards one-another, and eventually, it got to the point where i just didn't want anything to do with her.
i ended up breaking them up.
i don't remember, honestly.
i think she broke up with him because she wanted me happy...
i wanted HER happy... i always have...
now keep in mind. this guy lives in a totally different state.
she lives in MY state.
time went on, and i begged her to get back with him because she was only truly happy when she spoke to him...
so, they got back together and before i knew it, everything between us went downhill... she started being distant... she deleted me on FB so that if i saw her online and i'd messaged her, i wouldn't freak out and blow her shlit up if she wouldn't answer. (which she ALWAYS would no matter what. even if i was going through something, like always. then he came along...)
i asked her to add me back.
time went on and one day her bf was on her account
(they gave each other the log ins to each others accounts to prove they can trust one-another..)
and she was dying her hair and left her tablet unattended..
her bf decided to tell me that i was being a horrible friend..that he was a better bf than i was a best friend..
she came back a few minutes later, and i asked her if she read ANYTHING he had said to me.
she said yes. and that it made her giggle...
that was the end of everything..
i flipped shlit and told her that i was ALWAYS there for her through EVERYTHING. no matter what. i had helped her through tough nights when she was holding a razor blade to her wrists or thighs.. and she just....let everything go down the drain.. she ended up blocking all of my FB accounts. (i used to RP a lot so i had various accounts pertaining to my characters) and i haven't heard from her since that day.... then she texted me with a photo of her daughter wearing My Little Pony pj's and said "i know we don't talk anymore, but i thought you might like these" (i LOVE MLP XD) i never replied...
my fiance says that if her and her bf break up, then i can try and talk to her again... but i have to wait until she comes to me...
see, the thing is, she's only with him, i think, so that she isn't alone...
just yesterday i saw her for the first time since we split apart.
i hadn't made any eye contact with her that day..
but i know her well enough that i could feel her vibe from 2 feet away... she's hurting... and i can't help her... she's alone even when he's right next to her...
he lives here now... with her...
someone who she doesn't even know... and it scares me...but i can't help... she won't listen to me anyway...
me and her were inseparable... best friends till the end... guess that changed in the blink of an eye, huh... i guess I'm just venting here.. i'm not asking for advice... i just... need to let this out. it hurts.. it really does... but she doesn't know...maybe one day our paths will cross again...as if things will ever be the same...
crouch on a chair second guessing
Justice in the wrong
young with a deep love and with deep hatred
A mirror of the master yet the one to finish the task
Competitive till the end, choclate!!!!!
Young impressionable and strong despite the hardships
Fighting till death did him part
How interesting, what a … juicy apple
Please leave in the comments who you think each line is before you read the answer list and feel free to disagree with me
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It might be stupid and I might get made fun of but I feel like this is a safe place to share so if you're going to be a d*ck and act like what I'm asking is obvious STOP READING AND DON'T COMMENT! Because I'm writing this for a reason.And if you're a decent human being you know I'm just asking for a answer.
So lately my mother had pointed out to me that i haven't been eating alot,i didn't realize it until she had said something but she is right I haven't.I'm not not eating on purpose I just forget and won't even eat all day except a small dinner.I'm not doing this on purpose I'm completely fine with my physical appearance I don't think I'm fat and I don't think I'm a twig.
I sometimes will be laying or sitting still and I will get dizzy,I also get dizzy when I stand up sometimes.I try and force myself to have a snack but when I try I feel like I'm going to throw up so I just won't eat because I'm scared to throw up. When I'm hungry ill eat but that's rare,I'm starting to scare myself because of this I honestly don't know what to do.
If I was unhappy with my physical appearance I would do something like work out and watch what I eat like I have in the past to loose some weight,but I don't hate my physical appearance.I think this started after school got out no one's there to tell me it's time to eat breakfast,lunch,dinner.I'm not saying I need to be babysat but no one is there to keep me in check but myself.My mom works all day and I stay in my room all day so she never knows when I eat.
I truly and starting to scare myself and again I don't know what to do and if you say "just eat!" I can't its hard.I don't enjoy forcing myself to eat and it's bad I have to sometimes.All im asking is Do i need to get help? Is anyone else going through this? Should I see a doctor? WHAT THE HELL DO I DO!?
Its bad enough I get called "Emo Satan worshipper Cutter" I don't need anorexic added to the list.
So yea I would like your opinion and this is my first blog I know it must suck but I had to try.
And I have nothing against people who worship satan I just don't appreciate being call that when I'm not,I don't really like the word "emo" and as for cutting I have and ill talk about that about time.
So yea thanks for reading!
its currently 12:18, and I just had my second anxiety attack. Ive had GAD for a while, but nothing serious, or ever worth mentioning. But what just happened was terrifying.
I was just walking down the stairs and I just got really scared and started breathing really fast. I ran back up to my room, sat down and tried to calm myself down. Im better now, but damn.
the first time this happened was way worse.
I woke up the other morning, scared out of my mind. It was only 6 am, and I normally sleep till noon. I kept telling myself to stop freaking out and go back to sleep, but that made it worse. Then there were these noises on the part of the roof next to my window that sounded like metal being drug across the shiddles, and I ran downstairs and just sat in the living room crying and breathing too fast. I just couldnt shake that fear.
im going home in a couple weeks to start school. Should I see a doctor when I get there? Or is this normal?
im still really nervous and jumpy.
- Danny F
When it seems that I might be alone in this world that’s full of strangers
I look around to see only the toils and the snares.
Some might say that the loneliness will help a person grow,
That the pain you feel will only make the good times better.
But what about those of us who find ourselves to be below the status quo?
Why is it that the rich and fit are the ones considered ordinary?
Why is it that people who don’t fit into this “norm”
Are considered outcasts instead of extraordinary?
This country, founded on equality puts all of us on different planes.
My differences are considered a nuisance that no one can quite fix.
The one who has the money and the looks is the only one who gains.
were all diein
some ani't even trying
some try to force it
other explore it
no such ting as happy begining
any tearless night
ever any fights
one by one
no one every said the sky won't dark
or that life won't be loud
sorry that i can't everything you think you see
yet it more then meets the eye
and we should all know
Look i'll give you an example but im gonna change the names. So about a month ago some idk mean, bad people took my fosterbrother that we were gonna adopt. Let's say his name was Zac. But this couldn't just happen once cuz about four months before that the same fudgging people took my foster sister and lets say her name was Karen. Wich has left me in this kind of depresion cuz i was really atached to both of them....so yea. Anyway yup what do yall think? I really need a hug
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